How do I get through this Game of Life?

Pessimistic, bullheaded, antisocial, unloveable, lazy, (possibly a) suicidal depressive; what worst player for this Game of Life can be found?



Recently a friend of mine said something along this vein: "Life's like a game which you must see through to the end only then can you go to Heaven and see the person(s) you want to."



This year, I lost 2 people I loved, 1 of whom I know I lived for so that I could visit on weekends. Tho this Q aint on how to cope with missing them but on how to con't living when I so desperately want to die.



I don't have any friends; I'm always at war with my family. To quote a Michael Jackson song, "On my own, I was lonely". Change the 'was' to 'am'. I'v been feeling hopeless ever since I entered teenhood, now I just left it ~2 years ago and I'm still feeling this way. It has even intensified.



I'm studying something that I chose to enrol in (as in non-mandatory) hoping that if I graduate I can use the paper Q to earn a living. I'm almost certain I chose the wrong thing but there aint no more looking back considering the $ and sacrifices I already made, and I don't see any other alternative further studies I can go for. Going to school saps my energy cos I don't understand what's going on, cos I'm all alone n have no inclination to make friends there (as far as I can see 90% are foreigners with extremely poor Eng : lang. barrier) except locals but they alr have their own groups and I see myself going through another few years (at least) of emptiness, of loneliness. The only friends I have are my online friends who are few and far between and anyways I have restricted internet access (both personal- and mum-set)



I look at my notes everyday (haven't even started studying - not 'revising'. 'studying' - for my 1st exam which's in 2weeks' time) and I give up. I look at my empty house and wonder what I should do; I give up and gorge on food while reading books (used to be a hobby, now it just feels empty) w/o my mind on them.



It's all so bleak and hopeless. My bank's empty I鈥檓 at the mercy of mu mum ..monetarily, activity-wise and no I can鈥檛 find a job when I can鈥檛 even keep myself going studies-wise. I drag myself to school and try to be happy try to make friends but I have no mood to.



Last night I was listening to some music and crying myself to sleep (trying to, sleep, at least). I looked out my window into the emptiness and it seems so real, I saw an image of myself standing on the window ledge and looking down.



I float around aimlessly everyday and feel so guilty doing nothing I open my notes but can鈥檛 focus. I鈥檓 so happy to have an empty hose cos the means no war. However it makes me feel so empty.



Why am I so hopeless what does life mean anyway I cant even do things a normal human does. I desperately want to go back to normal that鈥檚 why I wrote an essay here. But I fear im too far off-tangent and im too proud to say I need help (offline) it always feels my hearts a stress ball in use.How do I get through this Game of Life?
School and adolescence is hard,

everyone has been there, even though they may not have found it as hard as you.

but everyday is a new day, think about having a fresh mind, and start getting every thing straight.

You could try getting on with your home life, and making peace with your family otherwise life is going to be difficult everywhere you go, you need to change it.



Yes, its hard to make friends, but just find a common interest with someone, or go to clubs and make friends there?

but just think, right now isn't everything, you still have the rest of your life which can be changed; thats if you want to, you can but you have to be determined.

your an mj fam too see were here :) :)How do I get through this Game of Life?
Life is hard for all of us. We all go through extremley hard times in life - but these are but tests. Tests to see if you deserve a GREAT life, or a ordinary boring life.



The only way out of these tests is through. Go into them with strong determination and dont give up.



remember why you held on for so long in the first place.



Just dont give up - then you cant loose.



I beleive in you - good luck.How do I get through this Game of Life?
The late teen years and twenties are especially a time of struggle: identity, direction, responsibilities, social changes and in some cases, family changes. Life is about change, and you'll keep facing it throughout life. But you don't have to go it alone, even when family and friends leave or hurt you. If you put all your heart on things, people, pleasure, money, or other tangibles, you'll be eventually disappointed. And none of us is strong enough as steel to manage everything perfectly. We were not created that way.



I advise you to do what I did when I made major mistakes years ago, was miserable and no one else knew how to or seemed to be willing to help me. It's not religion, but a relationship. You need to call on God in trouble- persistently, sincerely and consistently. Tell Him everything (He already knows, anyway) ask for His help, and leave all with Him. He heals the brokenhearted and binds their wounds. This relationship is healthier than medication with no side effects, safer than suicide, and God promises His incomprehensible peace to those who trust Him.



You must keep an ongoing relationship with God: ask Jesus Christ to come into your heart, to forgive you of any sin. Thank Him for dying for you so you can have eternal life. Confess that you believe He's the Son of God who has risen from the dead. Tell Him that you'll live for Him, and ask for His guidance about everthing, and forgive your family.



If you meant what you prayed, welcome to God's family! Now stay in contact by talking to the Lord everyday, and follow an easy-to-read Bible daily, starting with St. John. Make friends at a Bible-teaching church and tell others about Jesus.